Especially since we’ve been in ministry, Silvio and I have experienced a LOT of spiritual attack. I’ve learned a bit about how to pray against it: saying Jesus’ name out loud, renouncing the enemy in Jesus’ name, renouncing evil in His name, praising out loud. But sometimes the attack has been enough that I’ve put exhausting effort into praying in these ways–which is clearly a sign that even my prayer has become something I’m trying to do on my own power, not on God’s. I do have to play a role in not giving in to the enemy. But God has the main task when it comes to that. He has all the power, and He does protect me–but I have to accept His protection and come under it.
Luke 10:18-20 says: “He said to them, ‘I watched Satan fall like lightning from heaven. Yes, I have given you power to tread underfoot serpents and scorpions and the whole strength of the enemy; nothing shall ever hurt you. Yet do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you; rejoice rather that your names are written in heaven.’”
I’ve definitely been putting too much focus on the fact that I’m under attack and on what I think *I* can do about it. I need to focus more on Abba–Him saving me, but especially just on Him. The devil can tempt me and torment me, but ultimately that’s all he can do. I’m probably actually egging him on by letting the suffering he causes get to me. Instead I need to just nestle into Abba like I once was better at doing. I still need to do my part, but that is minuscule compared to His.
Abba, please teach me the balance of doing my part and trusting You to do the rest.